do you ever feel like your in one big giant waiting room? like your whole life is continually waiting on something else to happen to get where you want to go? you have to wait and see if your name is going to get called. but i'm talking about waiting for years and years. and while your waiting you have to do the most humdrum boring thing you despise the most at times. not being able to be with or do the things you love and long for the most. and everyday is another day you have to keep going moving to get closer to what you want with zero guarantee or promise you'll see all your hard work come to fruition. and every dream and quest you went for always seem to crumble in front of your very eyes. with only few promising words every couple of weeks to keep you in high spirits you get to wake up to this everyday knowing full well its going to be a long journey. the scary thing is is that you have full control (to an extent, it all really depends on what The Big Guy has got planned) on how this could all turn out. if it doesn't happen
its all on you.
your efforts weren't enough.
i get so discouraged some days.
i get so restless at times.
sometimes apathy sounds like the safest place to hide.
i dont mean to sound like a whiner. i know there are faaar worst situations to be in. and that i am blessed beyond comprehension. i just needed to vent. pray for the Haitians.