uuuhh......my stepmom, whos been my stepmom since i was 7, who lives in colorado with my father and their two kids, who hasnt seen me in a year and my brother in almost two years was within driving distance and didnt want to see us.
we only found out because my 8 year old brother Brett called and told James.
let down and sad doesnt even describe the feeling i have inside.
why didnt she want to see us?
why didnt she want to catch up and maybe get a bite to eat?
why didnt my dad tell us?
why is it okay for her to fly out here for her dads birthday but my dad cant fly out here to see us?
why wont he answer my phone calls, texts or emails?
why wont he visit us or pay to have us visit him?
when did i become part of my dads other family?
why after all this time and after so much shit do i still hurt by him?
why couldnt i have gotten a better caring loving father? one who actually really loves me and wanted to get to know me? one who didnt leave.
one that could have showed me what a real man is.