the day i lost my voice

"It's sure as the floor 'neath my toes
And somehow not surprised
That I was superimposed, somehow in this life
And if my friends and my foes would just drop me a line, it'd be nice.

You see love is a drink that goes straight to my head
And time is a lover and I'm caught in her stare
And the sentiment there follows me straight to my bed through the night

I've got my life in a suitcase,
I'm ready to run, run, run away..
I've got no time, 'cause I'm always trying to run, run, run away
'Cause everyday in here feels like it's only a game.
I've got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase...

What could be an anchor here, with a storm on the rise,
When you never meant to see so clear, when smoke gets in your eyes
And the men in the moon never makes his replies
Understood

I've got my life in a suitcase,
I'm ready to run, run, run away..
I've got no time, 'cause I'm always trying to run, run, run away
'Cause everyday in here feels like it's only a game.
I've got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase...

For a moment I was one man and the world made sense
For a moment in this storm made of consequence

I've got my life in a suitcase,
I'm ready to run, run, run away..
I've got no time, 'cause I'm always trying to run, run, run away
'Cause everyday in here feels like it's only a game.
I've got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase..."

-copeland

lately this has been my hearts song. but my head reminds me how selfish id be just to take off and i realize it would be in fear ...at this point.

ive worked years to get to the position im at right now. and when i thought i was finally going to get my answer i received an answer far worse than a "yes" or a "no". it was to wait a little longer. see over 1,000 people applied for the school i wanted but they only take somewhere around 30 transfer students. i dont know how it goes really but i wasnt declined from the school. there just wasnt enough room to fit me in anymore i guess when they got to my application. and now, on monday, i will find out if they have a spot for me. now im to the point in my head where im just cussing up a storm of frustration. the semester starts in one month! but seriously, anyone who got into that program would be stupid not to take it. unless they got into UCLA or USC's film school. so im not getting my hopes high on there being a spot for me.

i dont want to sound ungrateful but i really do want to be some where new so badly. i want an adventure. i need to explore.